Basically I'm Gay


Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
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Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:


  • Lily Hudson

    Lily Hudson

    9 часов назад

    The hardest part of this video for dan was probably including the clip of hello internet

  • Malachy Smith

    Malachy Smith

    11 часов назад

    And who the F#@@ CARES????

  • Meep 17

    Meep 17

    11 часов назад

    I’m about to go into my second year of secondary school and I was outed at the start of the school year by my now girlfriend and I know I’ve got dark times coming but I’m going to take the good times now and I may be young but I relate to this so much

  • Camryn Evans

    Camryn Evans

    11 часов назад

    Thx so much for this video I needed it

  • — rosiechim

    — rosiechim

    12 часов назад

    6:41 WTF I-

  • Kirsten Mcfarlane

    Kirsten Mcfarlane

    12 часов назад

    Im so confised . I swear 2 god that this used to be 42 mins not 45 !!!!

  • Bonnie Davies

    Bonnie Davies

    13 часов назад

    The 13th of June is officially Dan Howell Day

  • Meme Master

    Meme Master

    13 часов назад

    You’s a bitch

  • Taleah


    14 часов назад

    Thanks for the G note

  • Juju


    15 часов назад

    Haha okay but when are you bringing the sexy endscreen dance back? Nah I’m jk I love you a lot and accept you. But seriously though I miss the endscreen dance ;(

  • Katt Murray-Todd

    Katt Murray-Todd

    15 часов назад

    Happy you could do this!!! Love you so much and can’t wait to see where you go!!💞💞

  • Alex Byron

    Alex Byron

    15 часов назад

    jeez that clap at 7:00. This is amazing work Dan, and well done!

  • Julianna J

    Julianna J

    16 часов назад

    I’m still coming back to watch this..

  • Erin Haughey

    Erin Haughey

    18 часов назад

    I love this. Thank you x

  • 8-bit Zoey

    8-bit Zoey

    20 часов назад

    We're here for you Dan, through and through. You should feel comfortable with who you are.

  • E Pittard

    E Pittard

    23 часа назад

    emo phase is the best!!!!!! im still going through this phase and i LOVE IT!!

  • Gudinichka Otp

    Gudinichka Otp

    День назад

    Don’t be afraid. We love you

  • Natalie Klotzbeacher

    Natalie Klotzbeacher

    День назад

    How you bring light, humor, tell a story, and shine hope on people struggling all in one video

  • Walchen -_-

    Walchen -_-

    День назад

    Phil, thank you. This is really relatable to me and I really appreciate you doing this.

  • The Keel

    The Keel

    13 часов назад


  • Emu Nebula

    Emu Nebula

    День назад

    Probably watched this like 30 times since he released this video. Yes im addicted

  • Swirlcord


    День назад

    I’ve been going something very similar and honestly this video has helped sooooooo much

  • Savannah Toms

    Savannah Toms

    День назад

    No one: ABSOLUTELY no one: Me: hmmm... I have to wake up early in the morning to undergo some torture that people like to call band camp. It's 11:27 at night. TIME TO WATCH A 45 MINUTE VIDEO!!!

  • Jay B

    Jay B

    День назад

    "Im confused and sad and horny" i feel that man

  • Arden McBride

    Arden McBride

    День назад

    I kept telling myself I'd watch this fully when it first cam eout and kept forgetting until now. But god this made me feel so guilty for being a huge phannie back in the day. To be fair I quit all that way back in 2014 when I realized shipping human beings is gross and messed up bc it does absolutely lead to the exact shit Dan mentioned. Overall this was such an amazing video and you have such a huge support behind you Dan!

  • joao santos

    joao santos

    День назад

    Me 10:04

  • ŽæùN ŁòVê

    ŽæùN ŁòVê

    День назад

    It’s OK HONEY! I love you and I’m always proud of you booboo

  • blueh9


    День назад

    I am nowhere close age wise (older), but I relate so much. Many of the stuff you went through I did as well.

  • Narssissolock


    День назад

    Yay Daniel! Way to go! Stay safe and be happy. You deserve it!

  • im not a nerd

    im not a nerd

    День назад


  • Mxstiecal_ X

    Mxstiecal_ X

    День назад

    *"I have big hands with very wide reach..."* **silence** *"...for playing piano, **-you fricking-** get your mind out of the gutter!!"* 43:44

  • BlancRose2


    День назад

    9:37 Ava’s Demon theme comes on and that made me happy.

  • 10OOXOO0 1

    10OOXOO0 1

    День назад

    Why does this video have dislikes?!?

  • BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.

    BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.

    День назад

    is dan in the dark void again. *DAN GET OUT OF THERE*

  • Dancing CumberCookie

    Dancing CumberCookie

    День назад

    I got my friend to try on a pair of heels and he didn’t take them off for an hour he loved them so much. I agree with him though, heels are fun!

  • Flynn Murray

    Flynn Murray

    День назад

    Where was this video three years ago when I needed it most 😭. Love you Dan! So happy for you ❤️

  • somepersonnamed sophie

    somepersonnamed sophie

    День назад

    I love that he made this video in a sequinned jacket, it really tied it all together

  • Χρυσάνθη Β

    Χρυσάνθη Β

    День назад

    I LOVE YOU._

  • Helen Yim

    Helen Yim

    День назад


  • Bella Marietta

    Bella Marietta

    День назад

    Ily ♡

  • Rikistrikiis


    День назад

    Dude everyone knew it

  • Jake Bello

    Jake Bello

    День назад

    *A R E W E G O N N A F U C K*

  • Queen Of the world

    Queen Of the world

    2 дня назад

    Everyone comes out at their own pace and you are of course welcome to the community.❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

  • panduh boi

    panduh boi

    2 дня назад

    8:36 *related on a spiritual level my guy*

  • Theresa W

    Theresa W

    2 дня назад

    The world is pretty messed up with how people can think and how they treat others... Am glad things are better for you now :)

  • Brushes and Butterflies

    Brushes and Butterflies

    2 дня назад

    The 45k people who disliked might need a hug 😬

  • Kaitlyn Apel

    Kaitlyn Apel

    2 дня назад

    This is the best motivational speech I’ve ever heard

  • Just Saph

    Just Saph

    2 дня назад

    11:09 isnt that felix in the victory song mv

  • Destiny Dynamite

    Destiny Dynamite

    2 дня назад


  • Livier07Arteaga


    2 дня назад

    This touches so many issues. I wish this video could be seen by everyone. I didnt realize how bad school really is until my daughter started 3rd grade.

  • Maddie


    2 дня назад

    You are soooo well spoken boi 👏

  • Lessac


    2 дня назад

    Thank you for pronouncing lmao as “luh-ma-ow” and not “elle-em-ayy-ohh.” My friends tease me about saying it the way you do, so it’s a relief to see that my prononciation is valid (and superior). Also: hell yea!!! live your truth🌟

  • such trash

    such trash

    День назад

    Saying it as elle em ayy ohh is a crime against humanity,,,

  • toxicsugarplum


    2 дня назад


  • Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts

    Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts

    2 дня назад

    19:27 - 19:45 I’m intense sobbing, not only because of Dans attempt (but that made me cry for like 20 minutes so I had to pause the video) but because I’ve been in that situation multiple times

  • Noah


    2 дня назад

    And I’m only 12

  • Noah


    2 дня назад

    Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts me too I have bad depression and it is bad

  • TheCallousOne


    2 дня назад

    i love the intro so much

  • Rainbow123


    2 дня назад

    I find myself coming back to watch this video again and again, thank you so much for making this!

  • Kirstie Campbell

    Kirstie Campbell

    2 дня назад

    the fact that I already knew what a Greebo was is highly dissapointing

  • Heely Billy

    Heely Billy

    2 дня назад

    So this is obviously an amazing video but what I'm wondering a month later...are we gonna get bloopers?

  • leyli


    2 дня назад

    Im gonna write what i think ab the video as i go threw I never knew id get the talk by dan Howell THE G NOTE Oh wow School sucks omg EMO PHASE YESS

  • Natalie A

    Natalie A

    2 дня назад

    Are you coming back soon we miss you so much but take as much time as you need, your happiness is the most important thing

  • BillieIsMyZaddie


    2 дня назад

    _love u_

  • The Unknown

    The Unknown

    2 дня назад

    **doesnt post for another year**

  • Helen Vivet

    Helen Vivet

    2 дня назад

    thanks for helping me understand my unlabelled son

  • such trash

    such trash

    День назад

    We need more mothers like you, keeping an open mind and being willing to learn 💚

  • No Copyright Audio Music Library for Creator

    No Copyright Audio Music Library for Creator

    2 дня назад

    nice, I think it is great keep sharing them =D thanks for this

  • Rachel Dunn

    Rachel Dunn

    2 дня назад

    I got SO many chills watching this... love you Dan. Thank you for all you've done for us. I hope you find happiness in all you do and all you are

  • Una Sebastian

    Una Sebastian

    2 дня назад

    Aw dan 😪 ure doing great

  • Marilyn15


    2 дня назад

    Ok but he could literally do a TED talk. Please can he do a TED talk

  • mia van Zijl

    mia van Zijl

    2 дня назад

    this was really great and supportive, but honestly, all i want is some more Golf With Friends content

  • Britney Thorns

    Britney Thorns

    2 дня назад

    Thank you so much for sharing your story.

  • sugarglowin


    3 дня назад

    me coming from vidcons night of awesomeness

  • justin white

    justin white

    3 дня назад

    how long was phils vid...hmmmm

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